Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow

The last several weeks have been different than any phase of my life prior. It is easy to become enraptured in the concept that life is meant to be lived in a goal oriented fashion, but since the track season ended almost three weeks ago I have abandoned all aspirations of self-improvement and have simply been trying to connect with as many human beings as possible. To be honest I feel gross. I have been staying out late, sleeping in, not working out in a structured manner, and going out to eat more days than not. I went away to New Brunswick this weekend with a triad of friends and had a lot of fun; getting out of Halifax for a few days was a huge mental break. I got the chance to connect with people that I had only met in the context of the weight-room.

   When I get to Korea I want to return to a structured routine. I still want to be a high level athlete, either in track and field or another sport, and in order to do so I will need to begin to start getting my sleep schedule back on track, eating properly, and training focused. Although I definitely needed this break it will feel nice to start fresh again. I want to start writing again. After three months of writing for 1-2 hours a day and finishing a 400 page manuscript I have been slacking off, a mental break. I have come to the realization that the underlining theme of the entire novel needs to be rewritten so I have months of editing to return to. 

 In my heart I am experiencing an odd combination of sorrow and excitement. I am excited travel to Korea, but I am going to miss the people in Halifax fervently. The circumstance of leaving my home is, I believe, exactly what I need to truly understand the world. My life up until this point has been sheltered so I need to get into the real world understand the desires/pains/insecurities of a whole new group of people. In order to be able to write as proficiently as I would like I need to gather more perspectives of the world. Writing is nothing more than creating caricatures of real people under fictional circumstances. Life is exciting.